Monday, January 5, 2009
20th December 2008
OMG, today i've finally realised something. See, i've liked a girl from sec 1 up until a month ago, and i just realised that i havent thought of her from sometime November onwards. OMG again.
Well, actually everyone knows i;ve liked her from sec 1. I mean, duh! This kindda thing spreads real fast, so even she knows that i liked her, but she never accepted me. NEVER. So, i've sorta "secretly" been in love with her for, like 3 years 7 months. WTH thats long... During this period, thinking about her is very painful.
Lemme say it again, LOVING HER HURTS like hell, and somehow the saying that it hurts like a thousand daggers piercing your heart applies here. Those who never experienced it will never understand how painful it is. And seriously, it hurts so badly i do cry while thinking about her. I never could imagine i could feel so much pain just by thinking about her. And wth, i dont even know what i like her for, i mean ive liked her for more than 3 years without even talking to her? Its hard to imagine, i know. I feel happy when i see her smile, although i know she isnt smiling at me, but still sometimes, people do get jealous and sad, nonetheless me. Why couldnt she see how much i like her? Am i so invisible to her? haix, love hurts, although this saying is so cliche as its overused and undermined. Sometimes i do wonder do i really like her, for so long, without a single word exchanged and i have no idea what her character is like. Yea, im confused, really confused.
But hell, i just, again, realised that i've not been thinking about her since around november. Im seriously surprised myself. HAHAHA cool, i didnt reach the 4-year mark. Thinking about her does not hurt anymore, and im so SO relieved =D. Finally, im free.
yay! Sorry but im still reminiscing about the past xD
Well, started work at Taka Mens wear on level3, at the Goldlion counter, sometime ago. Wieeeee people there are so friendly, and i bet no other counter's so carefree and friendy. OMGOMGOMG. There's a girl named Kimberley Chia Tingfang. this is how our conversation goes:
Kim: HI!!! Are you new here?
MY: Yes.
Kim: How old are you?
MY: 16. You?
Kim: Omg weirong guessed your age correctly *turns around at weirong and laughs*. Guess how old i am
MY: Erm... 16? 17?
Kim: No la im 20 years old. Cant tell right? *laughs loudly again (?)* No la im also 16. *Goes back to her counter still laughing*
LOLS. It wasnt until a few days after that when me, kim, weiqi, jiapei and yingli went for lunch together then i realised some-things about her. And im not kidding, this is REAL. Call it coincidence, or call it affinity. It goes something like this:
Kim: Where do you stay?
MY: Yishun.
Kim: Oh hahaha (at this point of time i get the impression she loves laughing xD) i stay at yishun too!
MY: Really...??? wth what a coincidence
**subject changes**
Kim: What school are you from?
MY: Presbyterian High
Kim: Kuo chuan or just presbyterian?
MY: Presbytarian high school... the one near....
Kim: OMG! do you know tiffany chia? Or lunn chia?
Ok, at this point of time i sorta freaked out. Why suddenly bring up tiff chia, and her cousin lynn chia? Then it hit me, kim's surname's also chia. (WTFOMG)
Yea, its so that Tiff Chia's cousin is Lynn Chia, so where does Kim come in? Simple. Kim's Tiff Chia's cousin and Lynn's sister.
Serious.
OMG.
WTF.
*am i dreaming?*
What's more, it doesnt end there. After work, went home together. Of course, since she stays at yishun too we went home together. When we alighted at yishun and tapped out....:
Kim: Where do you stay?
MY: Near the mrt
Kim: Wich part?
MY: Blk 213
And she bursts out laughing and well i have a nagging feeling i know what she's gonna say next. Kinda expected it xD
Kim: i stay at blk 221
MY: Blk 221...? er...
Kim: Its very near your house lor, just a few blocks away
Of course, i thought she was kidding me. Until i sent her home then i realised she's staying just 4 BLKS IN FRONT (or behind) my blk! OMGWTFRUKIDDINGME?!?!
20th December yay!
Hmm... tml's 21th Dec, Kim's birthday! well, as a friend im obliged to celebrate it with her, eh. And well, she gimme the idea to countdown with her for her birthday, so i decided on doing just that xD
Ok, im working the morning shift, so i knock off earlier than Kim---> she's doing full. I had it all planned:
Plan A:
Knock off- CHIONG HOME!!!
Shower, change into formal wear by8.30
Bring along money $$$ lots of money xD
Go to Mini toons at northpoint or the new wing to get a cuddly for her.
Be outside Taka back door by 10.30
Plan B:
Knock off- Choing to northpoint to get the present first!
Go home shower n change.
Be outside Taka back door by 10.30
Damn things didnt go as i planned. Shoulda listened to my conscious as when the mrt stopped at bishan and amk i had a thinking i should get down to either mini toons to get the present first, but didnt.
Went to northpoint then, but walked ALL TROUGHOUT northpoint and the new wing but couldnt find a mini toons. DAMNDAMNDAMN. I knew i was screwed, so i rushed home to shower and get dressed in my shirt n skinny. xD But its already.. 9.00 what im afraid of is that the mini toons at other outets are closed by the time i get there. ARGH!
So i rushed out and caught the mrt just as it was leaving the station... Chiong-ed to ank hub mini toons, and phew what a relieve, theres still so many people at the mini toons there doing some last minute shopping xD
Went in and looked areind , and something fluffy and white caught my eye. Yessir, its a white seal, and i quickly dropped the idea of a teddy bear cuz, well its old fashioned, the seal is so much nicer, the seal caught my eye, and the teddy bear there looks so... teddy-ish. Haha so i asked for a new one, but they dont have, so i could only take the whitest one on display. Wanted to wrap it up, but when i went to the wrapping counter thaey said i have to wait 30-45mins. WTF the time's already 9.30... Oh hell i could only wait, so i went to the quiet, empty staurcase at somewhere at 1st floor and waited. Waited. And waited.
Finally 30mins passed and i went back up to collect the present.Then rushed to Taka (yay!) and was still a little early. Lols, when Kim saw me... Hahaha i cant describe her expression. She was like "omg" and all.. xDxDxD
Went to Macs at northpoint as i was hungry, so while i was eating we counted-down hor birthday. haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLEY! xD
Haha, she opened up the present i gave her... And named it Xiaobai™. She did tear a little, and i first thought i made her cry, but found out her x best friend (?) messaged her i think... Terrified of girls crying, as i'll think its my fault ><
Walked her home before going home myself, xD
****What a great day... ****
Was it just me, or was there a tug in my heart...?
