Friday, January 9, 2009
Posting the past, again... :p
24th December 2008
Yay!!! Its the eve of Christmas!!!
Worked full to day, xD, and went for countdown with kim, yingli, jiapei, tiff chia, lynn, xiaoqiang, meifang (san-jie!)and ivan. All coleagues at taka. Well, almost all xD
Is it just me, or was there a tug at my heart everytime i see her? Dammit, when i thought about her my heart grows heavy, and it aches like HELL, almost like how i felt in the past. I've only known her for awhile, how could i feel this way for her so quickly...?!
The whole lot of us went to Long John Silver at Cineleisure and chatted while we waited fir the countdown. Yea, and wanted to meet up with Alice ( er-jie!) at Plaza Sing for the countdown, but we missed the countdown there by 2 mins. =.=
Im confused, and had actually wanted to be good friends with her, since i rarely feel so open around others, before seeing if there's a chance to fa zhan... But...
Well er-jie was gone by then, so the lot of us (excluding meifang n ivan who left before the countdown) went walking around the shops in front of PS.. Yeaa and it was damn quite at PS. I repeat, it's QUITE, like there wasnt even a countdown there... Then walked to Cathay and sat in a deserted corridor outside the toilet and chatted. Well it wasnt really deserted, people walked by and kept looking (or starring) at us.
Damn, now i really dont know what i should do. I was hurt, badly, once, and i dont know if i can take another setback. Its bad enough to drop a hundred floors down once, what if it happens.
Then decided to go to a cafe pub somewhere opposite paradiz centre, called Alps cafe or something. Hey, we're all underaged except for xiaoqiang and yingli, but we were allowed to drink. darn i must ask yingli how the hell did we managed to walk in xD
But jiapei and kim, oh and lynn did not drink, altho lynn did sip a little of tiff's vodka... O.o
ONCE BITTEN, TWICE SHY
Haha, then took a cab home, but slept only at about 6.30... I must be mad, i have work the next day. MORNING SHIFT. Wth was i thinking -.-
Yea... i dont know if im ready to love again. Im really afraid, really. The option of forcing myself to give up and forget's really tempting... And she seems like someone who will never like me. Why the hell must i always like those who will never like me, those who im never good enough for.
